Cozy.
Quiet.
Peaceful.
As a lightworker, I naturally gravitate toward sparkly, high-vibe people, places, and things.
Lightworkers are those who come to Earth with a soul mission of reminding humans who and why they are here.
Of course my name is Valerie B LOVE - so my mission is to remind myself and others of the simplest yet one of the most difficult things to do, which is to B LOVE.
Yet, there are obstacles on the lightworker path here on Earth.
I am also a very sensitive empath and if I do not practice energy hygiene every single day, many times a day, I can be very negatively impacted by external energies and forces.
The non-stop stimulus and overwhelm of modern life can cause one to crave solitude and avoid interaction with the chaos.
8 years ago I almost died because I didn’t know myself well enough and didn’t navigate 5 massive life changes with skill or support.
I thought I could handle everything on my own because I always had in the past.
However it was all simply too much and I collapsed into heavy drinking and acting like an asshole because the shame and overwhelm consumed me.
I wanted to shrink to a tiny speck and hide from all of the pain and suffering.
There is something soothing about becoming so tiny and melting into the dark, that nothing can find you and hurt you.
However it occurred to me this morning as I was meditating on the tiny speck and seduction of darkness, if I were to ever really disappear into the blanket of darkness, there would be NO MUSIC to listen to.
As much as I feel like protecting my heart from the tsunami of strong emotions of loss, fear, grief, rejection, uncertainty, and negativity, the thought of not hearing music ever again is enough for me to stay here on Earth in this skin-suit and navigate the tsunami.
My favorite music is my children’s laughter.
Nothing is better.
Nothing.
Of course as a DJ I love all kinds of sounds and vibes, but the sound of laughter of your loved ones is peak symphony.
So, I am sharing this with you because I know what it feels like for those of you going through pure hell that escape seems like the only option.
You are NOT alone.
I wish I had the version of me now to talk to 8 years ago when I didn’t think I could take this life anymore.
So I am starting what I promised God I would do 8 years ago when my life was spared.
I will be sharing stories and practices that have helped me become stronger than ever, and continue to grow as a work in progress.
Look out for SNAP! Goes the Mommy and SNAP! Goes the Human stories from me soon.
Blessings to you on this long-strange trip called life.
Let me know how I can best be of service to you on your path.
Wishing you,
Peace, LOVE, & Warm Aloha,
Valerie B LOVE